After finishing up this past semester, emotionally I felt exhausted. I felt exhausted of art, lacking confidence in my "talent"/skill sets, just tired of everything in general.
My close friend, Allyson (a.kelleyillustration.blogspot.com) is working on her illustration degree and her water colors are just fantastic. I get enough joy by seeing the scans she posts, but we finally were able to hang out today and she let me thumb through several older sketch books. Seeing her works-even down to the doodles- just helped get my inspiration line on track. She said to me a lot of her classmates have been claiming they "hate art" now or are just tired of it in general. I understand that, I really do. I don't work HALF as hard as some people I know and I still feel like I "hate" art at this point in time.
But I realize that this is a common thing and it happens so often-to anyone. I know that it's a low point, and I'm worried if I am even any good at what I am doing.
ANYWAY! I was hanging out with Allyson and our other friends, and we all decided to have a drawing jam session, which is really fun for us because we had a LOT of inside joke drawings in middle school to draw upon anytime we are together. I decided to paint-something I scarcely do- a doodle of a young girl. Usually watercolors fight me, and I feel like using them is like trying to tame a lion...It's not entirely possible because watercolors don't care what you're trying to do, they do what they want. My slight painting actually turned out really nice for a doodle. It gave the right kind of mood to the teensy piece. And I was happy.
I left, went home and started doodling like crazy. All of Allyson's intricate sketches and some other art blogs that I look to for inspiration, held under my belt for a while, sprouted out of me and I feel so much better. I didn't /get/ better but at least my spirit feels a little less dead.
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